I still remember every little detail about
what happened a year ago. When I never went outside my house, when I barely
getting any sun, when I only combed my hair once in 3 days, when I watched tv
for 7 hours straight, when my mom yelled at me to go out and be social, when my
friends visited me just to give their pity look, when people gave their best
advice but still didn’t care about what happened.
I still remember every little detail about
it. Like how I couldn’t sleep at night thinking about this cruel life. Like how
I couldn’t wake up in the morning because I didn’t want to face another day
with the same disappointment. I still remember the way I envy my friends;
because they have dreams to achieve while I was just sat in front of my laptop,
busying myself with unimportant stuff. I still remember how it felt to have the
whole world against me. When no one was there for me and I should fight this
universe by myself. I still remember what it’s like to feel lost. To feel like
there’s no hope at all.
Tonight, as I sit in the corner of my room, I
realized that I’ve got through that. All the cruelness this life offered me
somehow makes me a different person. It makes me knew that in order to be happy
we need to feel the pain, too. I am no longer a girl who watch tv for 7 hours
straight, in fact I don’t watch tv at all nowdays. I am no longer a girl who
just stayed in her room and never feels the sun touch her skin. It is the sun
burned my skin now. I’ve got a future ahead and dreams to achieve. Most of all,
I’ve got life full of adventure waiting for me.
So, I’m starting my new chapter of life, in
this new place, with the new atmosphere, and of course with the new people as
well. It’s been 2 months and I couldn’t be more grateful for all the blessing
in my life. Especially those new people who make me laugh even harder than
before.
For all of you, who feel like giving up,
please don’t. You have so much to look forward to in this life. Keep going. Keep shining. Because hope will always be there for those
who don’t lose their faith.
