Hi guys.
It's April. And I didn't expect I could going through this so far. Curious why I didn't write here as much as I used to? Again, a cliche reason, internet connection. Besides, I don't have any wonderful story to share. But that doesn't mean I am not happy. I am happy in the sake of all little things.
Enough said, let's talk about the main post.
Like what I've told you, I'm happy. But lately, I feel bad and I don't know why. I feel like everybody's ignoring me. Like my presence doesn't mean anything to them. Everyone seems don't care about me after all the effort I have done for them. This feeling really suck but believe it or not there's something more suck than that.
Missing the old time. The memories and of course the person, and I can do nothing about it. Triple suck.
I wondered what matter the most, being ignored or missing the old time. And I already got the answer. Here's the point. I don't really mind about how they ignored me, because I knew they can't stand themselves and still need me. But the feeling of knowing that I miss someone so bad is making me sad that I want to go back to the past and change it.
People say if you miss someone you have to call them, make an appointment so you guys can meet up. But that's doesn't work on me. I don't even know is he still remember me? After what we've been through for 3 years and this is how we ends. So sad, indeed. But I'm pretty sure it's not the end. Because he promised me to back when we both achieve our dreams. Yeah, we go for our dreams in our own way, and it's been almost 2 years since the last time I saw his face. What else to say? I miss him and I would do anything to make him here with me.
I remember everything. Every single thing he did for me. I used to be a girl that doesn't really appreciate that little thing he did for me. And right now I just realize that I was such an idiot. How could I ignored his sweet attention, my God.
Actually, I am speechless when I am talking about him, especially about the togetherness we've shared in the past. Our story is too beautiful. Praying and wishing I can meet him soon, that's all I can do.
One more thing to say, being ignored is bad but missing someone is worse.
Xo
*this post was being in my draft for two weeks, just thought you should know*
