Seems like the world didn't let me write here even if I wanted to. I really want to share what's going on in my life with you guys. So many stories I would like to tell to you. But I don't think I should to tell you now. Because it has done. It's over and I am kinda grateful. It's too dramatic to be told. But let me say the simple one.
It was happened on December. Everything seems nice, I had done my exam, I got a traditional dance to show on classmeeting. Just like a year before. Sadly, it turn out to be tragic december for me. Where I have to faced high school problem. The choice is between lived or someone dead. See? It's someone dead, not me. So, it's totally hard. I mean, someone's life is on my hand. And of course I choose to save him. But then everybody thought that I was doing a mistake. I shouldn't saved him. Even worse, half of me think the same way. I also think that I was doing a mistake. So, I don't know. I just couldn't get it that time. I just believed that I'll wake up soon from this nightmare.
January's come. Things get better on holiday. But, those creepy thought about what will happen when I come back to school a lil bit disturb me. Made me so worried that I couldn't really enjoy my holiday. But the day is come, and like usual I face it like a man. Everyone gives me advices, they told me that since the time I chose to saved him, I'm not the same girl anymore. They said I was being different aisyah and all my smile, laugh, happiness was fake. So, they helped me, to made this better and bring my real happiness back. And they did it.
It's finally over a week ago. And I'm so grateful. Although I know I hurt people, but things are gonna get better. No regret for my decision, inshaAllah. Something happen for a reason, whether it's for a bless or a lesson.
Now, everything is okay. The next day after I got my problem done, I cut my hair off. I don't really confidence with long hair and just in case cause I got my self free. There's nothing to worry about. I already back for being cute cute aisyah (ew). My subject working well especially chemistry. And I got someone who made me happy by just looking at his eyes. Alhamdulillah everything's doing well.
Thank you for read my story. And sorry for my bad grammar.
Ps: Pain demand to be felt.
